18 weeks and counting…

Here I am at 18 weeks. I look like a stuffed sausage, though thankfully I don’t feel like one. Nothing really new on the Kohen front. I feel a bit of movement but nothing I can garuantee is baby. I can’t wait until Kevin and AJ can feel him love that will be a blast. Ava is doing really well. She is now potty trained and looks so cute in her undies. Yesterday Kevin was singing the wheels on the bus to her and he added the Monkeys on the bus to which she responded Daddy, no Monkey’s on the bus Monkey’s walk! ROFL!! Besides family work keeps me so busy. I swear being a teacher is a lot of work. It is tons of fun but there is so much preparation involved!!! Until next week 🙂

Catching Up

Here are some pics from my camera that I took the last few weeks. Also I finally got a chance to scan Kohen’s ultrasound. I got a call back from my MF and he said that my second trimester screening came back normal so here is to hoping Kohen is a healthy baby boy. Either way I can’t wait to meet him! Here I am at 17 weeks pregnant and other pictures as promised… Kohen’s Member

He has his Daddy’s head.

We went to Ocean City to weeks ago for my friends son’s 3rd birthday.

This past weekend Kevin and I went to the Redskins game. We had AWESOME seats thanks to one of my students.

Loving two…

I walk along holding your 2-year-old hand, basking in the glow of our magical relationship. Suddenly I feel a kick from within, as if to remind me that our time alone is limited. And I wonder: How could I ever love another child as I love you? Then he is born, and I watch you. I watch the pain you feel at having to share me as you’ve never shared me before. I hear you telling me in your own way, “Please love only me.” And I hear myself telling you in mine, “I can’t,” knowing, in fact, that I never can again. You cry. I cry with you. I almost see our new baby as an intruder on the precious relationship we once shared. A relationship we can never quite have again.But then, barely noticing, I find myself attached to that new being, and feeling almost guilty. I’m afraid to let you see me enjoying him — as though I am betraying you. But then I notice your resentment change, first to curiosity, then to protectiveness, finally to genuine affection. More days pass, and we are settling into a new routine. The memory of days with just the two of us is fading fast. But something else is replacing those wonderful times we shared, just we two. There are new times — only now, we are three. I watch the love between you grow, the way you look at each other, touch each other. I watch how he adores you — as I have for so long.I see how excited you are by each of his new accomplishments. And I begin to realize that I haven’t taken something from you, I’ve given something to you. I notice that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you. I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong. And my question is finally answered, to my amazement. Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you — only differently. And although I realize that you may have to share my time, I now know you’ll never share my love. There’s enough of that for both of you — you each have your own supply. I love you — both. And I thank you both for blessing my life.”Unknown Author”

Baby Kohen

He’s a Kohen. We weren’t able to enjoy the news for very long because my MF told me that my blood test came back abnormal and higher than a woman my age should for down syndrome (1/572). He told me that he is pretty sure that is because of the other twins sac still being there and also the twin loss. He also saw a bright spot in the babies heart which is normally a marker for down’s but not in woman my age. He did some blood test and asked that I come back in three weeks. Seems like I have been through this before and I swear I don’t like it. Please keep my baby in your prayers. A few for me would be nice too.

15 Weeks!

Here I am at 15 weeks. I had just drank a lot of water and fresh squeezed OJ (so YUM!) so I am finally looking pregnant. I have my MF appt on Thursday and I can’t wait. I am so sure I am going to cave and end up asking to know what the baby is. Kevin is dying to know and now I am feeling its a girl so I want to check. I actually haven’t bought a thing for this bean so I would like to shop too.
AJ is not in my belly pic this week but hopefully next week. I have to say everyday this kid amazes me. She is so witty and smart. I think it hit her yesterday that I was going to be going to work everyday and she wasn’t going to stay home. She was so sad when I left and she kept asking to go with me :(. Thankfully when I get home she is all smiles and ready to play. Her vocabulary is just unimaginable to me. She had perfect sentences and uses phrase at the right time. Today I asked her to take one more bite of her pb wrap and she told me, “Um. Wait a minute let me think about it!” ROFL! It is kind of sad to see her growing up so fast. Till next Thursday 🙂